Were it not for grace...

It's been a busy, long few weeks. But at the same time, time seems to have gone by really fast! We were in NY for 2 weeks and are now back in MI. During those 2 weeks in NY, Mom flew to AZ with Sarah and Jesse for 9 days! So Dad and I were home with the other three kids. It was a good time for all of us. But there's nothing like being all back together as a family! During that week and a half I felt like my every minute was planned out. Always something to do or somewhere that I had to be. There were many "rushed" feeling times. It all worked out good though...everyone survived! ;) It was just hard to keep up on all of my normal daily studies, plus house work, kids school and dinners. I was working with Brady that week too. There were two practices for the play also. So my minutes were always filled with something... Joanna was a blessing to me in many ways! She stepped right up to the plate and did whatever needed to be done so I could be gone working with Brady! I tried to fit in a few special things with the kids, while Mom was gone. =) We all had a good time. But I was so happy to have Mom come back home! I really missed her, Jesse and Sarah while they were away...things just aren't the same without the whole family! I had to stop many times and just laugh at myself! I would be out in a public place and quickly turn around, (thinking that it was Jesse) ...just to realize that it wasn't Jesse walking behind me! I guess that I was so used to having him be with me when I go run errands, that it was a strange feeling to get used to! ;) I missed Sarah too...we have been memorizing Ps 119 together and I sure did miss her and the support that she is to me with that! (and many other things)! I was glad for phones though, I was able to talk to them and Mom for a good amount of time almost ever day that they were there!


Ok wow, I just rambled on and on...guess that I should move on to other topics now!

Because our trip to NY was so fast/rushed. I could feel myself getting run down. Physically my body couldn't take anything else. I ended up getting a weird sickness thing. (nothing major) So I called Mom and told her about it..she told me that I was doing to much and needed to rest. Not only was I feeling run down physically, I was feeling it emotionally too. I've known for a while that the possibility of us moving etc. was probably going to happen. But I was holding onto some Hope that the Lord was going to make a way so that didn't have to happen. I don't know if I was in denial, or just simply trusting/waiting on the Lord for HIM to change something in our circumstances?! Either way, whatever state I was in mentally reality hit me and I started to get emotional. The next day had it's hard moments, but I was still pushing forward to get all that had to be done accomplished. About 3 days later Dad wanted to talk to me, to let me know what was going on as far as moving goes. We did have a good "Father-daughter" talk in the office. But by the end of it I was sobbing so hard that I wasn't really any good for talking anymore! So I went to a room where I was alone and could just cry out to the Lord in prayer, pouring my heart out to Him! Those few days were some of the hardest that I've had in a while. Millions of thoughts, feelings and e-motions running through my mind. I've been reminded of God's love and grace through many areas in my life though. To name a few...my parents, Pastors, brothers and sisters, and friends! God has used each of these different people to be an encouragement to me. =)

I've been learning SO much the past few months. Right now God has been reminding me that if it wasn't for HIS grace, I would be a wreck! This morning as I was reading in the book of John. Twice in the chapter that I was reading Jesus said "Let your heart not be troubled". That really spoke to me today! It was as if that was written right to me! Like God was saying "it will all be ok"! I know that HE has every little detail worked out. Sometimes, I just have to take some time to let all of my thoughts and emotions out before God. I'm SO thankful that He is my friend, Father, Lord and Savior!


I guess that I wrote all of that to say... "were it not for grace"...I don't even want to think about where I'd be! I'm so blessed for all that the Lord HAS done and HAS blessed us with so far! If it wasn't for God's love, grace and long-suffering I wouldn't be where I am today. It's only by/through His grace that we are able to go on each day. It will be an interesting journey the next few months. I'm sure there will be many times of tears, smiles, joy, and laughter. As long as I keep my focus right...on the Lord Jesus Christ! Everything will be alright! =)

I found this a few days ago as I was going through some things that I had written a few years ago...it blessed me and I hope that it's a blessing to you too!

If God brings you to it, He'll bring you through it

Happy moments, Praise God...Difficult moments, Seek God

Quiet moments, Worship God.. Painful moments, Trust God



Things really are going good...still trusting God daily and praising God that His grace IS sufficient for all my needs...!

SO blessed to be a child of the King!

~ Susanna